STRUGLE THEN DEFEAT

I'm tired. I work alot. I'm currently trying to pack up all the crap that has become my room, because I'm moving. I never realized how much useless stuff I have aquired over the years, ridiculous. I have too much going on, and one day, I just want to do whatever I want to ALL day long, if I want to sleep all day, I can. If I want to go shopping and just have alone time, I can. Just ONE day ( all I want is one) where I am not constantly looking at the clock figuring out how much time I have left before i have to move on tot he next thing on the list. One day without lists, that would be a good day. That makes me think of a Beatles song, it's called "That Will Be The Day", good song; if you know me, you know I have an unhealthy obsession with the Beatles, I wish I was alive when they all were, you know when they were a big deal, in the 60's/70's. I would have been one of those crazy fans that they show videos of on E True Hollywood story or Entertainment Tonight etc. You know you watch the video and then think, who are these people, and why arent they on medication? That would have been me, if of course I had been alive. My aunt was however alive in that era, have you heard of people building bonfires and burning Beatles albums? Yeah.... that was my aunt. I like to sing Beatles songs, out loud, badly, in public, without caring who hears, and sometimes I like to sing the wrong lyrics, on purpose, makes it more interesting. Like the song "Across The Universe" the real words are, "jai guru deva" but I think it sounds like, "like a rude day spa", so that is usually what ends up coming out of my mouth. And unfortunately for me the people who do hear my bad and inaccurate singing ( mainly my coworkers) do care, alot, just go ask Jonathan. The other day at work I was in one of those moods, I had probably 17 different songs stuck in my head, at the same time, they of course were all Beatles songs ( I told you, I have a problem) Whitney told me that I sounded like her ipod on shuffle, nice comparison. Sorry my post was so A.D.D. Its just like me.