IM BACK!

So I am back in "the Ham" and I am loving it! It feels so good to be back in familiar settings. I didnt realize it until i got back in the city, but i missed it sooo much! I'm really glad to be back around all my friends and family again. I'm so excited, I got my old job back at Starbucks and I am working my first shift back tonight. I absolutely loved working for Starbucks and I'm so glad I get to go back to my old store. The first person I saw was Court! If you don't know thats my best friend ever! i love her to death and havent seen her since last January, because she just HAD to go to South Africa, lol. But yeah I'm very happy to be back and be around the people I love and that love me back!
Ok, these little kids absolutely made my day! Watch and enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BC5NoQ7Rfcw&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kYWgbv0Nng&feature=related

Got to Stop

All this highschool drama about he said she said, and people assuming so and so did such and such has got to stop. It's immature and it's childish and it gets on my nerves. Certain people need to grow up and take responsibility for their actions, they need to stop stealing from people when they get mad at them for doing something they didn't even do in the first place, and to stop destroying peoples things out of retaliation, and then blame it on someone else. its pety and ridiculous. I'm pissed off to say the least, my things are missing and my makeup is destroyed all because someone got mad at me for something I never even did. If you buy some sodas for everyone living in a house, remember how many you buy, and save one for yourself, and when they all come up missing (hello, 10 people were in the house) dont get mad and accuse the first person you can think of of pouring them out so you couldnt get one. be careful what you say, because it may not be your place to say it, and it may not need to be said. All that it's going to do is cause alot of un-needed drama and make people hate each other, and thats a very difficult situation when your all living in the same house. I'm tired of being accused of things i didnt do and things that eventually, dont really even matter, like soda. Sorry I'm using my blog to vent, but I gotta do it one way or the other, lol. Eventually things in this house are gonna get so tense someone, most likely me is going to blow up on a certain someone elses face, and its not going to be pretty. On a good note: me and my best girl leslie sat on the back porch for 2 hours today and dwelled upon pleasant things, like the beach for instance, mainly because it felt like we were on the beach. it was about to storm and it felt so good outside! a little side note on lightning. I love it! if it isnt close to you or anything, its just kinda beautiful, for a split second the whole sky is lit up and you can see everything! I want to go to the beach so bad! me and leslie need to go, just the 2 of us and just do absolutely nothing but lay on the beach all day and night. dustin has a condo in flordia, i think we all just need to move there.

cant think of a good title right now

so at the present momment my life is pretty boring, ive ben in the bed since 6 yesterday afternoon, and that is because i am miserably sick with strep throat. i went to the doc yesterday, which was kinda weird btw because it was the same doctor that gave me my booster shots when i was in like preschool, but much needed meds were aquired so hopefully i will be feeling better soon. Mississippi is going pretty good, i was working at the sbux down here, and at my grandmothers resturant, well sbux wasnt givin me no hours, so i quit and im waiting tables full time, and i dont know if u know this about me, but i absolutely HATE waiting tables lol. but yeah, not really any big news that i can think of right now, just working and oh yeah, hangin with my BOYFRIEND! which i am really excited about, lol. more updates later

New Beginnings

well, i moved to Mississippi. yep, i sure did, im not sure how i feel about it yet, im kinda sad, i miss everyone, its just sinking in that i live here now, and not AL anymore. more updates later.

Isn't it funny how one persons actions, comments, facial expressions, can completely change your mood or how you feel. Just one look from that person, makes you wanna cry on the inside, makes you want to scream in desperation. People's beahvior shouldnt have that much effect on us. If im in a perfectly good mood, it should stay that way no matter how anyone else acts around me. I shouldn't let people steal my joy like that, but I do and I don't know why.

just came to me

A man sat laughing, he sat laughing all alone.
Lost in the joyful glee of our chaotic being.
A man sat in wonder, he sat wondering all alone.
maybe we should too,wonder why we sit in our self abashed shame.
A man in question, he sat in confusion all alone.
Questioning our hypocritical biogtry.
A man sat staring, he sat staring all alone.
Staring at the flotsam, the remains.
Staring at what is left after we destroy ourselves.

I'm tired. I work alot. I'm currently trying to pack up all the crap that has become my room, because I'm moving. I never realized how much useless stuff I have aquired over the years, ridiculous. I have too much going on, and one day, I just want to do whatever I want to ALL day long, if I want to sleep all day, I can. If I want to go shopping and just have alone time, I can. Just ONE day ( all I want is one) where I am not constantly looking at the clock figuring out how much time I have left before i have to move on tot he next thing on the list. One day without lists, that would be a good day. That makes me think of a Beatles song, it's called "That Will Be The Day", good song; if you know me, you know I have an unhealthy obsession with the Beatles, I wish I was alive when they all were, you know when they were a big deal, in the 60's/70's. I would have been one of those crazy fans that they show videos of on E True Hollywood story or Entertainment Tonight etc. You know you watch the video and then think, who are these people, and why arent they on medication? That would have been me, if of course I had been alive. My aunt was however alive in that era, have you heard of people building bonfires and burning Beatles albums? Yeah.... that was my aunt. I like to sing Beatles songs, out loud, badly, in public, without caring who hears, and sometimes I like to sing the wrong lyrics, on purpose, makes it more interesting. Like the song "Across The Universe" the real words are, "jai guru deva" but I think it sounds like, "like a rude day spa", so that is usually what ends up coming out of my mouth. And unfortunately for me the people who do hear my bad and inaccurate singing ( mainly my coworkers) do care, alot, just go ask Jonathan. The other day at work I was in one of those moods, I had probably 17 different songs stuck in my head, at the same time, they of course were all Beatles songs ( I told you, I have a problem) Whitney told me that I sounded like her ipod on shuffle, nice comparison. Sorry my post was so A.D.D. Its just like me.

Dwight

Sooooo, Dwight Shrute was in the parking lot at panera today. It made my day so amazing, this dude was the real deal. He had the hair parted down the middle, the very neutral colored clothing, complete with shorted sleeved button down collared shirt, dorky glasses, and he even had a "mini briefcase" ( refer to season one episode 6). Good day.

Triumphant Over My Yard

So today I went to work as usual, only its a Saturday, meaning that Starbucks opens at 6 instead of 5:30. Meaning i should have been at work at 5:30 instead of 5, but I was there at 5. So already my day is just weird. Apparently everyone else was having one of those days too, because Jared was 30 minutes late, and Whitney could NOT stop acting silly, it was all very entertaining for me. I got off at 9:45, came home, very tired I might add, went upstairs to say hello to my parents and went to my room to lay down, I needed a nap. No more than thirty minutes later my dad comes bursting in my room and says in a booming voice,"Oh no!! none of that its time to do some work!" Work? I don't think so. I just want to lay in my bed peacefully without rakes, leaves, grass, and lawn mowers to bother me. I groggily replied to his intrusion of my slumber with "Who are you?" To which he replied with a goofy grin and motioned for me to join his little expedition. I reluctantly got out of bed, I knew there was no getting out of this one. I changed clothes and ventured outside, I then waited to be deployed. I made the comment that I COULD mow the lawn, not that i WANTED to mow the lawn, my dad challenged me, I could tell by his face that he didnt think I could do it, to which my reaction was, "Oh no you didnt." I then proceded to mow the lawn, the whole lawn, by myself, have you ever seen my lawn? It isnt really a lawn, its more of a mountanous range of grass, braches, huge holes(which are very easy to fall into I might add) and small trees(which get mowed also). After about an hour and a half I finished my great endeavor, it was a great workout, and I'm really tired now, and quite sore. After all this i also realized that my dad totally tricked me into mowing the hardest part of the lawn and gave himself the easiest, he knew I wouldnt do it if he just asked politely, so he made it seem like he didnt think I could do it, which I of course had to prove to him that I could. That nap sounds good right now.

Know It All

So, it occurred to me today that I think I know it all. I think that my way is best and that I know much better than you do. One of my friends suggested something to me today out of love and just wanting to help and before I even gave the idea a chance ( it was a good one) I decided that that wasn't a good idea and I didn't like it. It was actually something that is Biblical and I really need to think about. I guess it's just a part of our sin nature. God has been showing me a lot about myself lately, you know how people say that God knows you better than you know yourself? He is proving that to be so true right now. I'm learning a lot about myself and needless to say, there is a lot of work to do, or rather let God do........